im 27 years old and just entered my second marriage. My first marriage was very abusive, physically and verbally. I have two small children from that marriage. After i decided to get a divorce, i waited 3 yrs before i dated someone else. He is now my current husband. When i met him he was so quiet and humble (so i thought) which i now see is meaning sneaky and deceitful. Weve been married for 3 mnths and im just finding out about his porn addiction. I used to have dreams that he was sitting in a chair and there were people sitting in front of him having sex. I blew it off thinking it was me being insecure. I found e-mails from him to some whore off of something called online booty call, telling her she looks amazing and asking when could they meet at his place or hers. (he was living with me at the time) when i confronted him he said it was before we were dating. Even though he sent this woman a picture of himself and it had my 2 yr old son in it! Not only did he include me, but he included my son too! Thats what hurt the most. My children were hurt by teir father and now ive invited someone else in to do tthe same. im so upset at myself and trying to figure out why. Whats wrong with me? I dont trust him anymore. Ive tried to get over it and i cant. Everytime i look at him or he tells me he loves me its like poison to me! SOMEBODY HELP!!! I cant even sleep at night and im tired!