Even if i don't get an answer its going to be nice to get this off my chest, here goes.
I am 19 years old, petite and in my own opinion not too bad looking (no-one really thinks they are stunning do they?) and my partner is a gorgeous 18 year old boy. We have been together for nearly 2 years now and have definatly proven our love for one another with over coming obstacles.
My partner eats healthy food and excercises alot but is a borderline (if that) alcoholic. I mean he just drinks it all away at any chance he gets. He had a very bad upbringing and drowns it all now in later life. He also used to sleep with ALOT of people. This leads me to the problem.
For the first 7 months it was fine, he wanted me all the time. Then he seemed to just forget about sex. I have tried all kinds of things to spice things up but all the hints never seem to get through and when i ask for it, he just seems to laugh it off.
I know that alcohol and emotional issues can affect a mans libido but the problem is that whenever offered he will accept oral sex, there is no problem there. It just seems to be that he doesn't want me. I can't reach any other conclusion other than he doesn't find me sexually attractive anymore. In my mind i keep blaming this on my insecurity, being flat chest, but i was like that before and it didn't bother him then.
He said once that he felt like our intimate times weren't personal enough and it wasn't special to hold me anymore because i modelled art nude ONCE. It was tasteful work too.
I don't know weather its selfishness or what. I just can't believe that at this age, my man already doesn't want to sleep with me....
I feel so unsexy and unfeminine and unwanted. Its really affecting me.
I don't even think its an issue of that i'm bad at sex because he had told me how good i was before. I just need someone to look in from the outside to see if they can suggest anything that could be causing this before i declare myself a freaking nun...
Thanks.