I'm 20 years old and my boyfriend and I have been trying to have sex for almost 2 years. The problem is I feel really scared and that I cannot stand of pain. Everytime I feel pain, I feel more scared. I am afraid of the moment that the hymen will break and I cannot calm down. Everytime we try, I feel so nervous that I can't even keep my legs open. I just feel Im not normal like all the other girls. Only once, he managed to get inside and I felt a lot of pain, but no blood came out. And once again after that, I felt the same pain, so I guess the hymen just stretched a little bit but it didn't break. I don't want to go to a gynecologist and have it cut. Im affraid that it will be a lot more painful and Im not sure I can afford it. Please, give me a solution! I'm desperate!