I got married three months ago, and after a month my husband was able to disvirgin me from the rear, which was very painful for me and blood came out immediatly,I screamed and he had to leave me immediatly and after an hour my monthly period came. Since the going to two months now have not been able to have sex due to the first pain. Each time I tell my husband am ready fear won't allow me do it. I don't feel any touch again, even if he touch my body I don't feel anything, I don't feel like having sex. But am suffering my husband, he has been patient with me thus far. I realy want to have sex again but fear won't allow me, and looking at the small hole from outside makes me feel is too small for his penis to go in. Am really disturb. What can I do to get reed of this. Even to put my finger or his scares me a lot. I was thinking if I can just take a drug and sleep off so he can do what he wants to do. Please help me so as to save my marriage and be fruitful. Cos am feeling guilt for not allowing my husband enjoy sex. Thank you