But he says I should know I'm the one. I live with him.. he has some sexual addictions and sex with me doesn't seem that interesting to him unless I am letting him secretly watch me performing oral other men especially neighbors. I have a problem having sex with strangers, it's uncomfortable to me. ,,But I feel I can't live without him. I just want him to love me for me.. It sucks ! It's not his fault,he has been abused. I keep thinking ,,one day he's going are up and start treating me like I matter to him. How do you know if people really mean what they say? And when it seems like they change their mind about how theyfeel about you often? I feel like I'm trapped waiting for him to figure out if he loves me .,, meanwhile I love myself less everyday and I have my own issues to begin with.. but I'm dieting inside more everyday... unfortunately I feel very weak like I don't have much more left... please help me to find out the awnser of how to proceed.