But he says I should know I'm the one. I live with him.. he has some sexual addictions and sex with me doesn't seem that interesting to him unless I am letting him secretly watch me performing oral other men especially neighbors. I have a problem having sex with strangers, it's uncomfortable to me. ,,But I feel I can't live without him. I just want him to love me for me.. It sucks ! It's not his fault,he has been abused. I keep thinking ,,one day he's going are up and start treating me like I matter to him. How do you know if people really mean what they say? And when it seems like they change their mind about how theyfeel about you often? I feel like I'm trapped waiting for him to figure out if he loves me .,, meanwhile I love myself less everyday and I have my own issues to begin with.. but I'm dieting inside more everyday... unfortunately I feel very weak like I don't have much more left... please help me to find out the awnser of how to proceed.
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Hello. Thank you for posting.
This does not seem like a healthy relationship. You are obviously not happy with how he treats you, or happy with yourself. I would never stay in such a relationship. Especially one where he likes seeing me with other men. Not sure what's going on with all that. But to each his own.
You need to be happy. You need to feel you matter. Most of all, you need to love and respect yourself enough to want a better life and relationship. To know you deserve it. But that has to come from within you.
Never think you can change a person. That is not your task. It's theirs. If they want to change. Some people won't or simply cannot change. Being abused (in the past) is no excuse for how he treats you. You shouldn't give him a pass because of that. It's what makes you stay - excusing his behavior - and he probably knows that.
Just remember, a relationship should bring you joy.
Helena
November 12, 2017 - 2:10pmThis Comment