During the seventh month of my first and only pregnancy, I began experiencing suicidal ideations. Although I struggled with the shame of having such thoughts at what should have been a high point in my life, I sought help from my Obstetrician. He nearly fainted when I explained my symptoms to him and immediately referred me to a specialist. The specialist, a well-respected psychiatrist, claimed that I was merely experiencing insecurities regarding my societal status. One month after giving birth, my depression worsened and I developed Post-Partum Psychosis. I was never adequately treated, much less supported during this major health crisis. In fact, I have never fully recovered. The shame is nearly as psychologically painful as the depression.
My hope is that better treatment options will become available as more and more women come forward with stories similar to mine. I also hope to become a part of the solution, whether as a health professional or a volunteer advocate.