55year old female ,RN, with rheumatoid arthritis, and sore feet from sesamoiditis. Working in a hospital ICU but running out of steam. I am divorced, with adult kids at home , thank God, they do most of the heavy lifting, ie vacuuming, lawn mowing etc. on steroids methotrexate and Rituxin. Take pain meds because they took away the NSAIDS , they drop my hemoglobin, and Tylenol increases my liver studies. I daydream about being able to walk and dance, and a temperpedic bed with heat and massage, and a jacuzzi in my basement. Right now I have a heating pad and a Tony Little massage chair and a tens unit. I will be a Grandmom this year, and I pray I can hold a baby to help out my daughter . I had shingles this summer and two kidney infections. I am tired all the time and always in pain. I have gained twenty pounds since the summer, I don't really know how...I am too tired to cook. My hemoglobin ,thanks to SloFe , is 13.5 and I had one polyp on my colonoscopy in November 2012.