I know this is probably posted on here alot but i need some advice...
I have been with my guy for over 2 years and we are getting married in Oct. but our sex life has become practically non-exsistant. It is always me wanting, initiating, and even having to beg. He always has some reason ( tired, sore, full, or just doesnt want to) that he doesnt want to. Or he will say later and have no intention of it. I have tried talking to him about it and told him how in affects me and makes me feel and every time its the same thing " im sorry its not you i just have no drive ill try..."
I dont want to pressure him and I wouldnt leave him over this but are there things I could try? I also recently found out I have epilepsy and I wonder if that could be part of it...does he find me weird now?
I am a naturally confident person but the one person in my life that I want to want me , that SHOULD want me paying NO attention to me at all is starting to take a toll on that confidence. I always mull thoughts that its because im not attractive, and i look in the mirror and tear myself apart. I know that is wrong but I havent been able to talk to anyone about this, not even my closest friends because im afraid or even embarrased.
Its not even that I just want sex all the time i just want attention that he wont give. for example we dont ever kiss more than a peck. I guess he just doesnt make me feel wanted and im at my witts end and dont know what to do..HELP!