Lately I have been feeling really depressed. Everything gets me down.
I cry for now reason and I want to feel pain. I express my anger out, not on others
but on myself either cutting or more recently punching hard objects or myself. I have also used a hammer to hit myself in my arms and legs leaving bruises. I feel better for a little bit after but then I start to get depressed again.
I feel like everyone is out to get me or hurt me, not always physically but just emotionally or mentally. I shut people out a lot. I don't want to end my life I Just don't know what to do anymore. I can't talk to my family about it because they would put me away.
I can't fall asleep well at night, it takes me awhile. I have no interest in work or other activities the only thing I was to do is sit and do nothing.
I don't know what to do, any thoughts or advice would be helpful.