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Depressed, self harm.

By Anonymous November 15, 2011 - 11:36pm
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Lately I have been feeling really depressed. Everything gets me down.
I cry for now reason and I want to feel pain. I express my anger out, not on others
but on myself either cutting or more recently punching hard objects or myself. I have also used a hammer to hit myself in my arms and legs leaving bruises. I feel better for a little bit after but then I start to get depressed again.
I feel like everyone is out to get me or hurt me, not always physically but just emotionally or mentally. I shut people out a lot. I don't want to end my life I Just don't know what to do anymore. I can't talk to my family about it because they would put me away.

I can't fall asleep well at night, it takes me awhile. I have no interest in work or other activities the only thing I was to do is sit and do nothing.

I don't know what to do, any thoughts or advice would be helpful.

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Dear Anonymous,

I'm so sorry you're feeling down on yourself. Are there any changes in your life going on that are making you feel so sad?

How old are you? I know you are afraid of being "put away" so if you are old enough to schedule an appointment with a therapist or counselor, please do so. Self harm can progressively get worse and it is your way of coping with problems. However this needs to be replaced by actually coping with your problems in other ways and for that, you need professional help. 

If you need to tell your family about seeing a therapist or for whatever reason they will find out if you go, just tell them about your intense feelings of sadness, that you feel like for your health you would benefit from seeing a professional, and that all you want is their support. Eventually, I do encourage you to share that you were harming yourself but as of right now, if you think that telling them will harm you more than it will help you then tell them that you are depressed and need help. 

Here are some posts that contain important information and I think you may find them helpful: https://www.empowher.com/community/ask/self-injury-and-cutting

This one has many resources and is full of lots of helpful information and ways to cope: http://helpguide.org/mental/self_injury.htm

Please keep us posted and thank you for sharing your feelings with us and seeking help,


November 16, 2011 - 5:24am
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