My boyfriend and I are at the stage in our relationship where we start to argue more and things frustrate us more. We're out of the 'honeymoon phase' haha and I want everything to be okay and we always say what's on our minds instead of holding it up inside of us, but sometimes my boyfriend scares me and makes me feel depressed. I know that it's really not okay that he does this but I don't want to argue so I just take it. He abuses me verbally and calls me names but after he says he's just kidding and that he's really sorry, I don't know what to do and it hurts me so badly sometimes. I've even tried telling him how much it hurts and he said that I deserve it, I know he doesn't mean it though and he's just mad. I know I don't deserve that kind of treatment but I don't want to leave him. I've always seen women who go through this and wonder why they don't just leave and now I understand. Please help I don't know what to do!