Linda describes the disbelief she feels when looking at old photographs of herself when she was obese.
When I look back at photos of myself at 100 pounds heavier, I do a double-take. I can’t believe that was me. I can’t believe that I hadn’t realized that I was that heavy, and I wonder why I hadn’t done anything sooner and why I actually hadn’t noticed sooner, and my first inclination is to either delete the photo, tear it up, or actually, what I have ended up doing, is blow one of them up and remind myself to be careful.
I have enlarged one of my photos from a week before I had surgery and we had all gone to Big Bear and we got into a canoe and decided to just goof around and take photos. And there’s a close-up of me in a bathing suit. I have enlarged it and it’s on my bedroom door; when you shut the door there it is. So, it’s just kind of a personal reminder of what I had become and hadn’t realized.