So there was this guy about 4-5 years back on whom I had a huge crush!
We were in the same class. And I did everything to show him that I liked him and he knew. But he never showed any interest. Plus he made a girlfriend sometime after that.
I backed off after that because I knew chasing after a guy who is in a relationship is just WRONG. I moved on and everything. I even got into a relationship that ended after 2.5 years just because I had fallen out of love with the guy and that my feelings for that old crush RETURNED!
He's currently single and school's over so I really don't have a chance with him. He's too good anyway. He was the best guy in all aspects of that class! :)
He got into another relationship after the previous one but they broke up and last time I heard, he missed her!
I know that I cant get together with him, EVER!
But I think about him everyday and it hurts so much!
What I fear the most is that even if I find someone else and its a happy relationship, what if one day I realise that I don't love this person anymore. Sure, it has happened before.
I can't screw my relationships because of that one guy who I couldn't have.
I feel miserable.
You know what sucks even more is that he used to be friends with my ex.
And that he and I don't talk, at all. Not even on the chat.
We used to be friends 4-5 years ago, and at that time I could text him anytime. But now I dont even have his number.
This is aweful.
Friends tell me to give it time. But I've given so much time already. School's over and I still think about him!