It's gonna sound kind of crazy,but every day I struggle with falling asleep at a "normal time and getting up at a "normal" time.As the rest of my family goes to sleep around 11-11:30 PM, I am still up.And no matter how many relaxing teas I drink, or how many relaxation videos I watch I still find myself awake until 5:30 in the morning when my body just gives up and I lay down in bed to catch some sleep at last.And wake up around 2:30- 4 pm feeling extremely tired.The "crazy" part of this is that no matter how much I try to lay down and see if I'll catch some sleep I can not do so. for some reason I am afraid of falling asleep.Yes, afraid.I dont know why or how else to explain it.but it is just so.
I have been dealing with the depression the last couple of months due to the happenings of several rough patches in my life. and I unfortunately hit an all time low a couple of weeks ago.I didn't have the energy to do anything for myself or other around me.All I could do was cry myself to sleep and wake up and repeat the same day over and over again.But now I am back on track, at least I think so.By that I mean that I have more energy and take care of myself a whole lot more than I was doing.The support of my loved ones and friends have help me see a light at the end of the tunnel.I have been taking the necessary step to be fully recovered and back to myself once more.I am more happy and active .(Thank goodness I never took any prescriptions because they only make it worse to recover).
but why can't still have one rest-full night sleep?I want to live a life where I can wake up in the morning and make breakfast instead of waking up to only enjoy half of me day tired for no reason.