We had been married for many years already. Our sex life was okay. I turned to him one night to initiate lovemaking. He stopped me saying I needed to give him some space sexually. He also said to not touch him intimately in public or at home.
I was shocked. I waited a week on pins and needles not knowing what the problem was. He never brought it up again. I did. He did not want to talk about it. This continued for months.
He refused to talk to a doctor about it.
One year later he became ill with diverticulitus, almost dying. He was okay but has been in the hospital every two to three years with blockages.
A year later I got RSDS from a work injury.I have daily pain.
We are still together but I have tried everything through the years to try to get him interested again. He says he's pain and it's not me it's him.
I almost wish I'd left him so I'd been able to find someone else who loves me and wants
intimacy in every sense of the word. But I haven't.
I was a touchier, hugger, hand holder. We flirted with each other. There were winks and things said to each other that I then saw him do when he flirted with other women. I told him that really hurt. He said " I'm not $%&*... them so what's the problem?
Why did he turn away from me? I know it's not me as I had other offers. I chose to never take anyone up on them although I am lonely in my marriage for intimacy.