I need someone to talk to. Been married for 41 1/2 years. My husband is diagnosed with PTSD with VA. Last holiday he almost died from alcohol poisoning. Two days ago he took too many pills, which his body rejected by throwing up. Yesterday he admitted he did try to kill himself, with thoughts of using either by pills or gun. He apologized for this and swears it won't happen again and made me promise that I will not tell anyone, and to trust him again. Thru Christmas our kids, grandkids and their animals all stayed at our home for a week which, (although he did not let on) irritated him. If I did any complaining, such as when dishwasher did not work right, he took it personal. He admitted anything I say negative he takes personal which makes me scared to let my feelings out in case he tries something again. I'm afraid to contact the VA. In the past they kept him so doped up he destroyed two vehicles. Walked around in the nude all the time, etc. Right now he has control of all our bills and since I had foot surgery not too long ago, I depend on him driving. I hid all pill except his mandatory Blood Pressure meds and prozac, and hid the key to the locked gun cabinet. I'm afraid if I also let our kids know, (they both live a long distance away) they will call someone and take him away to a psych hospital. My husband will be 63 in a week and I am 59. I'm worried the more problems we let known, the more "senile" we will be accused of being and the less control we will have over our own lives.