I’ll never forget the moment I gave up.
It had been five years of doctor’s appointments, testing, prescriptions and trips to the ER. It was after one of these visits that my husband looked at me and said, “Babe; maybe its time to wait and see what happens. I mean, you’ve done all you can and nobody has found anything wrong with your heart”.
I broke down in tears. With this statement, my husband, my biggest ally, gave up. What else was I to do but do the same.
To say that I was depressed was an understatement. Maybe the doctors I had seen had been right all the time. Maybe all I needed was to cut back on stress and take a chill pill now and then. Maybe it was all in my head.
That’s when a dear friend of mine set me straight. She said, “You can’t give up! It’s your heart. You have no choice but to continue your search for answers”.
She was right.
I had no choice but to continue until I found the answers. Neither do you.
You Are Not Alone
It sometimes boggles my mind to think of the number of women that must be in the same position. Well, as one of them, let me be the first to say you are not alone.
There is strength in numbers. Especially when those numbers are bolstered by experience and encouragement. It entirely possible that, once you share your experience and have read the experiences of others, that your determination will be renewed.
It must be. Like my dear friend once told me, it’s your heart. You have no choice but to continue your search for answers.
What have you done in your search for answers?
Rebecca
http://rebeccasheart.wordpress.com/
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Hi Rebecca - I think it would be interesting to put together a room full of women and ask how many of them have been told they had a problem "in their head" when they sought help for a medical condition that didn't fit into a neat little box. There is indeed strength in numbers, and the more of us who share our stories and support each other, the better. Thanks for your insight and sharing your personal story. Pat
December 15, 2009 - 6:48pmThis Comment
Thank you, Pat! I couldn't agree more. Maybe I'll work on that!!
December 16, 2009 - 5:39pmAll the best,
Rebecca Fortunato
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Thank you, Rebecca, thank you! I needed to hear/read your words today more than ever. I've starting slipping down the same slope of feeling like I am making all this up...that the pain & symptoms I'm experiencing can't really be real, can they, since even my Dr seems to think my "mind is playing tricks on me" (his words). And thank goodness for this site, where we can all support each other! Stay strong, sisters!
December 15, 2009 - 10:15amCecile
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Dear Cecile;
December 16, 2009 - 5:41pmI can't tell you how happy I am to hear from you! This is truly a wonderful sight for us all to share our stories and take courage knowing that we are not alone. So many have gone through what we've gone through. Inexperienced doctors unsure of the diagnosis playing it off. You keep up the fight my sista!
All the best,
Rebecca Fortunato
http://rebeccasheart.wordpress.com/
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