Wish I was dead
Wish I was dead so I could pay for things for my husband and 5 young children. They will have a better life than what I can provide for them now. I told him that I was married for money and he agreed.
Husband chronically ill and I cannot see the strength for me to continue living. My life insurance policies are worth more than $2.5 million. they should be financially okay without me. My husband said I am "always complaining". I am not "always complaining." I have a lot of things he said he "cannot" help me with like giving me advice on business or things to do to make money. He cannot keep the house tidy or cook dinner every night. Everywhere we walk, we have to left our foot or move sideways to avoid the things on the floor.
I keep saying I don't make money cleaning after them although I could clean and I do clean and it takes time away from me to work and get paid. I lost 2 jobs this year, I feel unattractive and I do not feel like I have the strength anymore. I want to run away and disappear so they can collect on my life insurance. They can live without me.