By sickgirl13 November 8, 2010 - 2:09pm

I was diagnaosed bipolar 1 at an early age.. I was 13 I didn't even know what it was. I was put in different RTCs and hospitals and put on numerous medications. By the time I was 14 I had been in 3 different treatment centers, the medications caused weight gain and when I came home I stopped eating and lost 30lbs in like 2 months, I couldn't even go to school. That was my first eating problem. I ended up back in treament and was there for 5 mos. I gained the weight back. After that I started doing meth and left home at 16.. at 17 I found out I was pregnant.. and I got my act together. The biological father of my son did not stay around. I met my current bf 3 mos after I had my son.. 6 mos later I found out I was pregnant again. After I had her I was doing good and wasn't on any meds, I thought things were turning around.. my daughter is 2 now and my son is 3. Things are different now.. I started obsessing about my weight from my second child and started taking diet pills.. I did loose 20lbs and now all I can think about is loosing more. I started to binge and purge 6 mos ago and at first didn't do it except for twice a week... now its become everyday, I already feel holes on my back teeth. My bipolar has been coming up a well with long periods of mania and paranoia.. its consent racing thoughts and weight and thoughts and weight over and over.. I love my family and want to be okay.. so now I'm looking for some support :)