I need some advice regarding my marriage
My husband and I have been married for 2 years, we've been together for almost four years altogether. Things were great for the longest time. But now I feel as if I'm slowly going insane.
My husband has a good heart and would do anything for his family but he also has some major jealousy, anger, and control issues. I'm not allowed to see or talk to a friend of mine simply because she is dating one of my exes. He is insanely jealous of his older brother and claims that everyone loves his brother more (which is not true, they are loved equally as far as I can tell). my husband feels like no one listens to him and constantly undermines his authority as the parent of our 2 year old son. But he never listens to a word I say as our sons mother. My husband made a scene at a family reunion last Sunday because everyone agreed that our son did not need to be sliding down a slide head first. I told my husband not to let our son go down the slide head first but he didn't listen to me. So my husbands brother caught our son and got him off the slide. I would have gotten him off myself but I wasn't close enough to get him. My brother-in-law was right there by the slide which I'm thankful for.
Anyway there was yellimg and arguing. My husband disrespected his mom in front of EVERYONE and took off walking like an idiot. I was so embaressed and upset at my husbands behavior that I was crying and shaking. I'm still mad at my husband for acting like a child at the reunion and I'm so tired of peace keeping and not being listened to. He's never going to change his temper or anything and he has refused counselling several times.
I want to leave but I'm scared to, but I'm also scared to stay.. I'm really confused. I just need some outside opinions and some support.. I love my husband but I'm just not happy and don't feel like myself anymore...