Sex after depression
Hi everyone, I really don't know where to search for this one but I am trying to help my sex life recover! I have been with my handsome, caring, funny boyfriend for 5 years. When we started dating, we had a great sex life and three years ago I got really ill with depression and anxiety for about 10 months. Sex was the bottom of my priorities as you can imagine, but as I recovered from the anxiety with CBT, medication and other methods, I still had no interest in sex and when we made love, I didn't enjoy it and didn't feel anything. My boyfriend knew this and stopped trying to kiss me or make love to me. This has been going on for a couple of years now and it's got to the stage where we're both too anxious and self conscious to do anything except give eachother a peck on the cheek before going to sleep every night. :( I love him and am attracted to him but I feel like I have seriously damaged our relationship. He admitted to me the other night that he'd rather go without than not enjoy it! The other thing is that I can generally only orgasm through dirty talk...i am blushing so much here writing this....and he recently told me he doesn't like this.....making me feel even more embarrassed and anxious.
I'd really appreciate any thoughts or advice anyone has on how i could try to get through this. Even recommendations on a good book I could read to help with this?
Thanks, Desleys mummy