Pregnancy was a wonderful time for me. It was just the beginning. There was no other feeling that could compare to holding that tiny person in my arms and feel his heart beat as he slept. Babies grow so quickly and before I knew it, he was walking, talking, becoming independent and, at times, making everyday things a challenge for me.
One Friday afternoon, I took my two small boys to the grocery store. I was trying to get the weekly grocery shopping done before the weekend. My kids were 1 and 3 and I felt like I was doing pretty well staying home with them. We had a good routine. We had lots of time to play and I was figuring out how to get weekly errands done during the week so weekends could be family time. It was not usual that I would take both boys to the grocery store alone. But today, I was determined to accomplish my goal and cross this errand off my list.
I moved through the store as quickly as I could. I tried to read my list as my one year old tried to continuously grab it from me from the front of the cart where he was sitting. My three year old was walking with me and was happy to place every item that looked good to him into the cart. It was to “help Mommy” as he told me. Sweet, really. But helpful, no. Later that day, I would find all the groceries that we didn’t want but never made it back out of the cart.
I was almost finished shopping when my 3 year old announced that he “had to go!” Being in the potty training stage, I did what any Mom in my position would do. I darted for the nearest checkout. I began to franticly unload my items onto the belt as I realize that I had pushed the shopping trip too far. The meltdown had begun. My older son had now forgotten about the bathroom and discovered the bungee cord that they use to close the lanes. I could see him as I leaned into the cart, one hand on my 1 year old and the other used to empty the cart. He held the bungee as he walked backwards and let it go. BOING! Again. BOING! The younger one could see this and wanted to get out of the cart. So he began to scream loud enough so the people in the back of the store could hear.