I am still not taking medication for my diagnosis of obsessive compulsive disorder or OCD. To be precise, my therapist does not think I have clinical OCD, but perhaps I have some form of this disorder. In previous articles I explained that after taking a few doses of Zoloft, commonly used to treat OCD, I decided not to take it anymore due to the extreme adverse affects. I never tried any other sort of medication.
This leaves me in a state of dealing with this disorder without any help from the drug companies. And the surprising thing is that I am getting better. I have occasional lapses which are disheartening of course, but I am slowly making my way down the path to improvement. The last time I saw my therapist, she said quite spontaneously that I am much less anxious and less angry than I was during the initial period of our therapy sessions.
I did not quite understand what she meant by "less angry", and therefore must make a point of asking her about that. It's obvious that when I first began seeing her I would be very distraught, but that's not the same thing as being angry. It has occurred to me that I could have been transmitting anger unintentionally. I believe that this unintentional anger was not directed at her, but at people in my past. So it must have been a deep seated anger, which is the worst kind. In any case, the important thing is that I am apparently coming to terms with that anger, and am learning to deal with it. What does this have to do with OCD? Well, I believe that all those negative feelings can make you feel more anxious, and anxiety is a key component of OCD.
The key point here is that I do not take medication for anger that is connected to OCD, and I do not take medication to cool down that part of the brain associated with OCD. No medication at all. For me it seems to be working.