After I had my first son, I went back to my full time job. I needed to. We depended on the double income that my husband and I both earned.
Although I was happy to be challenged with a professional career, my heart ached to be home with my son.
I longed to be the Mom that could play games during the day, bake and decorate cookies and read book after book, without the concern of time. I wanted to be the one to teach him numbers and colors and to be there when he took his first wobbly steps. I thought I was looking for the impossible. I wanted to work from home.
My husband and I sat down and looked at our finances. We decided that I would quit my job when our son was 9 months old. Money would be tight but we could make it without my income. I enjoyed staying at home but continued to search for a way to obtain my dream.
Then one day, I found myself one step closer. Based on a referral from a friend and co-worker, I had the opportunity to freelance. I loved it. I could work from home and still be the Mom that made frosted pumpkin spice cookies on cool fall day. I felt professional and maternal all at the same time. It was just what I was looking for. The downside of my freelance work was that it did not bring in a steady salary and once my second child was born, I could no longer work during the day without interruption.
With two children under the age of two, Motherhood became my top priority. I turned down freelance jobs and put my work on hold. I am grateful for my hardworking and supportive husband who continued to work long hours for our family. Still, I knew there was something more for me. I just had to find it.
As I explored my interests and strengths, I gravitated to my current career. I became a writer. I have many friends that have found their ideal jobs the same way as I did.