A timid young woman walks into the huge dance hall looking both ways for the signs of hostility that her inner fears portrayed during the night. Her dreams consisted of the darker self trying to take over her conscious mind, making her completely defenseless against her own other self. She dances with intimidation--full of the fear of seeing her own self failing, of confronting humility with peers, of her own discipline being corrupted that is instilled in her by her mother. Most of all, she is fearful of losing her sexual innocence by unknown inner demons lurking around her mind's corner, her own dark half sending her to the brink of insanity.
I have never thought of Natalie Portman as an exceedingly talented actress. But with her portrayal of the white swan turning into the black swan the evil twin in the movie "Black Swan," she reached the heights of her acting career. The movie is based on the "Swan Lake" suite. I knew the story some but I never paid attention to it in detail. I am interested in ballet but never really attended any stage shows. Thanks to my son and the night he insisted on taking me to "Black Swan," I learned about human emotions expressed through art. My own emotions peaked as I watched the deeply contradicting emotions unfolding in front of me. I watched in awe how sexual introduction to the timid mind could release one's own fears, express evil entities, lead to self exploitation, cause love and emotions being flown into a sense of relief and self satisfaction, and just letting go of boundaries in order to attain total control and self-realization.
I was dazed several hours after coming out of the movies. I never thought I would react the way I did. Two days later my son's girl friend asked me how I liked it. I remembered the conversation I had with my son that night on our way home. I remembered my comment that it was not the kind of movie to watch with your own son because of the humiliation it could cast upon you with sexually explicit scenes. And then again I justified that it was not a movie that is made with intentions of sexual exploitation that is perverted.