ms.lily
Seems I was kind of sickly since I was a child even. Yet, it seemed as I grew older, more things were 'blowing their circuits' than I could keep up with.
The first time I got high was when I was 14 yrs. old. The drug was LSD. Now, bare in mind that this was back in 1969 - when 'drugs were drugs' so to speak. So, ok...kinda went like: LSD, Mescaline, and THEN i tried Pot. I would just like to mention here that I always smile to myself when I hear people say that Pot leads to stronger drugs! Well, sure wasn't my case!! Anyway, I did try some, from a bong. One hit only...thank God. Because within seconds I began to blow up like a balloon and huge hives were popping up all over me! A close friend of mine had the smarts and the courage to speed me home to my mother. She got my Dad and he took me to an E.R., the doctor said he had never seen such an allergic reaction to marajuana before. They got me thru that and if you think I EVER took another toke of that again, you're nuts! To this very day, I will not even get anywhere near where people are smokin' it. Bad scene. Years went by and I eventually tried Crack. It quickly became my 'drug of choice', and still is in fact. Now a days though, I easily get high whenever I wish as all I have to do is take a walk outside. When I look at the beauty that has been placed before me, all I can think of is 'Wow...how lucky am I?!!'. It took a lot of blood, sweat, and tears to be where I am today though. With almost 3 years clean and sober, I still have to take it one day at a time!
I don't always recognize my manic-ness for what it is until after the fact. Does anybody have this issue, where later, they look back on a situation and feel their behavior was completely ...
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