I just was so frustrated and probably said a few things that maybe I shouldn’t have.
I ended up having a conversation with Christine and we were both just really upset. She was upset that she couldn’t be here to help me. I was upset because sometimes I just feel like nobody understands and I just want to get on with life and have fun when I know that I can’t go back to how things use to be. Sometimes it just feels so overwhelming doing this on my own, because I am doing this on my own.
Little day to day things that seem easy to some can be such a huge deal for me if it’s not the right day. Just lugging my stuff from hotel to hotel and driving to and from 7-eleven for food and water was exhausting! I don’t know what I need to do to make myself feel better, but I am usually resourceful and have always pushed through so I am sure this time will be no different.