I am a pretty healthy young woman... I exercise regularly, and often vigorously. I love to eat veggies like: beats, asparagus, egg plant, anything veggies you name it and I'll eat it. I can prepare delicious salads, healthy breakfasts, lunches, and dinners. I eat chicken breasts with barely any fat, I eat my quinoa, homemade hummus, etc. On the sad side, I love, and I mean love the sweet treats. Mostly I reach for the baked goods and the chocolaty, rich, savory sweets. I hate it... At some points I will eat the sweets to the point where it's not even making me feel good, but I still eat it anyway because I know it might not be there around later, or that someone will notice and judge me for eating it. That, too, is a problem. I pack on the desserts while no one is watching... When others are around, I tend to stay away from them. I can actually be VERY self disciplined when it comes to sweets in front of crowds. I can say no to a delicious looking, pistachio filled, chocolate fudge cake without even blinking if my peers are around: and that's exactly what I did at work when that cake was around. I CAN do it, but when I'm alone I feel like I bury myself in my own misery of the deadly white powder! Please, help me. I've tried asking others for help. I've tried getting other people involved, but I think even though they know, I am still ashamed and I don't see any progress because I get myself to be alone only to find some way to get a bite of that delicious, mind rattling dessert. As of now, I am trying to reach out to other sources. I want to be beautiful again! Although I know I am right now, too, but I can be much better. I want to look good in my bikinis again, I want to look amazing for my special other half (he looks absolutely incredible) I want to not be so dependent on that sweet torture. I want to take control of my life in regards to the foods I eat!
I envision a person, anyone to be my supporter! To create little games, or challenges for me to follow each day or week. A person who can see my accomplishments and also push me down farther! If there is anyone, please let me know.
An anonymous and hopeful cupcake