I been with this guy for almost four years now. I got pregnant too soon and had my first daughter. I don't regret my daughter at all or my child on the way but I often regret the person I'm still letting be a part of my life.
When our relationship is good is the best a relationship can be so good that I question what did I do to deserve it.
But when it's bad, which is often it also makes me question what did I do to deserve it.
I've been lied to and also verbally and physically abuse as well as emotionally. I've given this man more chances than I ever gave anyone and one of them have change the fact that I am still being called a bitch, fat, and also that I can't have sex with him the right way. Pretty much tells me I'm not women enough for him. I tried to be with him after I found out he was taking to other women online and paying for virtual sex. He's been insisting that it was all he did and begged me for another chance. I gave him that chance still not convinced he's telling me the whole truth so I been investigating to find out more. YESTURDAY I went thru his phone and found some old messages which meant he was talking to women way before that. I been lied to this whole time and on top of that also humiliated. All he does is apologize and act like things will be better. They've just gotten worst. I just been giving him chances because I'm having his second child but I don't even feel like it's worth it. Maybe I should have my child alone and just stay alone for the rest of my life.