I have not spoken to anyone about this. I cry most of the time because im scared. I dont want anyone to think i am a bad mother or that i am crazy. I love my son! He means more than the world to me! I would never do anything to hurt my son! I just feel that i am not the mother i want to be. I know why i am suffering from this depression but i just dont know how to deal with it. I have tried medication in the past but i dont want to take medication because it usually leads to even worse problems. is there any way i can deal with this without medication?