Well first of all I don't know if this is a good place to ask this. I hope it is acceptable. I notice some people do ask some pretty casual questions that are not 100% health related. I could have asked this from yahoo but I hope this forum is a little bit more mature and woman friendly than some kids on yahoo.
So here's what's bothering me. I'm a pretty young college girl. Just got into college. I come from a pretty enclosed and over-protective background, meaning I never had any freedom. Was home schooled my entire time and turned out horribly shy because of it. But the other day I was invited out to a fraternity party being hosted at a dance club. While the idea of something like that made me extremely nervous, I decided that I would never experience anything interesting if I didn't take risk when socializing. So I did it.
I started out awkward but as the night went on and the first drink hit me pretty good (Guess I'm a real lightweight) I got more comfortable. After awhile I feel like I got too comfortable. I just danced. Thats it. Not kissing or no casual sex with strangers. But I grinded a random guy and I guess we were having fun and we got into it. My friend's girlfriend had been the one to really encourage me to start dancing and I was kinda not into but again, after awhile we had even grinded a little. She didn't seem to have a problem with it at the time but now I'm not sure. I really didn't have sexual intentions. I know people do this at clubs but I feel extremely embarrassed and I'm not sure if its because I literally went too far or was it just my social anxiety coming to bite me after the fact or a little of both.
I guess I'm asking if this is something I should be especially embarrassed about. Don't get me wrong, I know it was naughty but was it that bad. Should I feel embarrassed that a couple friends saw me have fun?