why am i so ill at night?

Starr90,

Hi, Starr. I sure do identify with what you're saying.

Were the "mad" days by chance in the week or so before you started your period? When I was in my 30s I went through the same thing and it took me FOREVER to realize that I when I was so extra irritable and close to tears and ready to pick a fight -- a couple days later my period would start. I just didn't see the connection for a long time because I didn't have many other symptoms of PMS. My cramps, etc always came AFTER my period, not before. So it took me too long to connect my periodic moodiness with the oncoming period. And when we were ttc, it was even worse. Emotions are SO high then.

If it might be the case with you, find a little purse calendar where you can keep track of moods (can be something as simple as happy, sad or mad faces you draw on each date) and then see if they correspond to ovulation or your period. It's a thought.

yea thats very true. I dnt mean to do it at all i just get mad at him for everthing and i feel so bad. But i always go back and apolopgize

Starr,

Considering your background on wanting to conceive and then realizing you're not pregnant, I think this sudden sensitivity may be due to stress and is completely normal.

When we have our hopes badly set on on something such as having a baby only to be disappointed, sometimes we don't realize that we are sensitive to what others (especially our significant others) say or do even if they don't mean it to upset you. I know this because no one gets under my skin the way my husband does, even when the poor guy isn't even trying. When you feel vulnerable it is easy to blow up or get irritated at someone else for it. What is important is that you realize if and when you're under stress or highly irritable and take a few seconds to think that your boyfriend isn't trying to purposely upset you and if under normal circumstances you would react the same way.