It’s a mystery to me how people see me after the more than twenty years since my accident. My injuries most definitely changed me by severely limiting my abilities, but luckily the part of my brain that controls my heart, my feelings, my caring, and my emotions has been strengthened into the one part of my character that I am the most proud of. It’s as if I believe that I wish I was a woman. I can state confidently this is true. I remember I felt this way before my accident, for my entire life I guess, and now because my injury has destroyed my ability to be a man, I feel my life becoming more feminine. I wish that more people knew and would understand. When I'm considered a man, it makes other men uncomfortable because I cannot do any male activities, and I don't want anyone to have to act differently. My emotions, interests, and overall personality are more similar to those of a woman. I wish I could find a woman who would see this as sweet and as something that will pull us closer...
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For as long as I can remember, most likely for my entire life, I have lived being in awe of and jealous of all women. A woman is priceless: her value is far above rubies. I believe that men should praise a woman, love her, give up his life for her, and her children will call her blessed. The man that finds such a woman, is truly undeserving of such an honor, as God has bestowed upon him a blessing only few will find. You might be surprised to learn that this is being written by a man. A man who for various reasons feels that he has more in common, and is more comfortable being around women. If my greatest wish could be granted, I would become a woman, and I would welcome everything, both the good and bad experiences. Since that won’t happen, a lesser wish and one that could happen would be to find a group of women or a woman who understood me and would accept that I have a beautiful feminine mind and I view the world with the vision of a woman.
May 7, 2016 - 8:32amIn my mind, I am a woman, but not totally, I have many female friends who I love, no time for a relationship with a man. I dream of finding where I can express my femininity without fear of judgement and I believe there are women whose souls would feel gratified by accepting me as a woman in a man’s body. As I already disclosed, I have a very feminine mind. Although I am a “man”, everyday I attempt to embody Feminine Grace and be comfortable with myself. What I do, I do with confidence and grace. Feminine Grace is joy, accomplishment, and love that comes from within. I know that I would acknowledge my feminine power, a power that comes from loving being a woman. I’d then accomplish my dreams because I believe in myself, and do so with creativity, sensuality, love, and happiness in my heart. I would love and embrace all children and view them as the blessings they are. I care about the welfare of all others and I believe that others gain from my wisdom just by being with me. If I was lucky enough to find myself in a relationship, I wouldn’t take it for granted and I would be able to be fully trusted by my partner. I would desire to be my partner’s most faithful companion and closest confidant. I would joyfully embrace being a woman and know that my mission is to love, comfort and assist others. I would take pride in my housekeeping abilities and I would manage my home well. I would be diligent to accomplish anything entrusted to my care. I would be firm in my convictions and desire to teach younger women the virtues of godly womanhood through her example and
instruction. I would desire for, and encourages men to be leaders in their families, churches and society. I’d desire to raise and train the next president, not BE the next president. I believe children are a blessing from God, not a burden. I would keep my spirit humble and quiet, and influences others through godly conduct. My desire would be to be a mother of nations, not a
leader of nations. My heart would instruct me to open my home for
hospitality and service to others. I’d be capable and skilled to clothe my family
and decorate my home, I would take much pride in this. I would desire to model the examples of holy women in Scripture. I’d have the skills to prepare meals for my family and bless others through hospitality. I’m able to teach children with practical, life instruction. I do not splurge on whimsical items and believe that I can be trusted with wise discretion in spending. I focus my attention and concern for the poor and the needy. I would clothes myself in modesty and good works and would not desire to attract or distract men’s eyes. I have a kind and helpful attitude. I am prudent: intelligent, productive, skillful, wise and very understanding. These are just a few of my reasons why I believe that I am in the wrong body. If I was a woman there is no doubt that I would live right and others would be proud to call me their sister.
Another element of femininity that I am in tune with is vulnerability. I feel that both I as well as women in general, have an incredible ability to be soft, sensitive, and vulnerable, coupled with the emotional fortitude to overcome the assaults against that vulnerability that we will inevitably face. This is not suggesting that women are pathetic or measly; it means that we are more delicate and should be treated as such. In fact in 2 Corinthians 12 it speaks of how Christ’s power is perfected in our weakness and when we are weak, then we are strong. While this particular passage is applicable to both men and women, it paints a picture of the beauty of being able to be soft and vulnerable. Women are worthy of protection and those who can overcome trials and tribulation and still be soft, gentle creatures excel in this area of strength in weakness.
-Matthew Guyette
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