I don't like sharing this part of my life, but if my story can help just one person, then it's worth it.
I am 16 (almost 17) years old, and I am dignoased with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), depression, a form of OCD and ADD. I have always had anxiety, ever since I was little I've been scared of practically my own shadow. The ADD never really helped, it only made me feel out of place, like I was different from the other kids. I was put on medication in 1st grade for ADD, which made me feel even more out of place and socially awkward. I never talked to anyone. The depression started when my grandpa died in 2009 of cancer, trust me when I say this, when he died a part of me died with him, a part I can NEVER get back. That summer (going into 5th grade) I decided to join cheerleading, as a place to try and make friends, but the girls kicked me off of the team in 6th grade. The depression got worse by the time I was in 8th grade. 8th grade was a nightmare, since I have ADD I am on a IEP, and my sped teacher was a witch. She would make me cry, give me anxiety attacks and send me home feeling at my lowest point. I wanted to die, I felt so stupid, like it would never end. But when high school came along, life got a bit better and worse. On the bright side, the boy I had a huge crush on started taking a liking to me (he was a year older and I think he still likes me), I got good grades, I ended up meeting and falling in love with my current boyfriend, and I felt like I was going on the right path. On the downside, I started getting depressed for no reason. I would (and still do) sit in my room with all the lights off, cry and go on tumblr and reblog depressing things. Depression and anxiety distroyed my life.
As I go into my junior year of High school, I realize now that I have lived half of my life in the shadows, just one more year of the best time of my life, and I've spent it sad. I want to be able to live before I die, not live just once and allow darkness to fulfill my life. I write for a hobby, and I write about my experiences to help others and to help myself. I am a star student in my poetry class.
I guess I don't know where I'm going, but all I know is that it's time for me to live my life now, and not regret anything.
I hope you enjoyed my story.
All user-generated information on this site is the opinion of its author only and is not a substitute for medical advice or treatment for any medical conditions. Members and guests are responsible for their own posts and the potential consequences of those posts detailed in our Terms of Service.
Add a CommentComments
There are no comments yet. Be the first one and get the conversation started!