I have PCOS I have had it for 16 going on 17 years now,I have depression, insulin resistance, facial hair growth, high testosterone levels and major weight gain. I have only had 6 periods in the last almost 17 years, although i have four beautiful children, which i was told after the first would not happen again. But somehow I have been blessed with being able to atleast become pregnant although doctors are baffled as to how. My life has been changed and effected in a bad way due to this conditioon. I am not the person I used to be. I dont look at myself in a mirror any longer because I do not see me! I see a person that is tired looking ,very fat, ugly!!.My skin is not in good condition anymore i break out all the time and the texture of my skin is horrible. I try not to go out in public, I cant take the comments and stares. This condition has impacted me in a bad way it has changed every aspect of my life. my husband sleeps on the couch and has for years now, our sex life is non existant! He gets upset because i dont by me nice cloths and dress up anymore. He gets mad when we do g to a store because i rush i want in and out within no more than 10-15 mins or so. my kids tell me they miss there mommy. they miss me going to the school and helping out and they miss me going to parks or even in the yard and playing. I amd stuck every since my PCOS has gotten extremely bad. I do not have medical insurance and have tried for help through social services for medicaid but have been turned down. When my husbands employer stopped carrying insurance for employees and families my condition has spiraled out of controll. I am scared of what is going to happen in the near future with my insulin resistance since i no longer have the meds i need to control all this. I hope that anyone else that suffers from this can and is able to see doctors because it is sooo important to control this i am a example of what happens when itis not managed and i wish this on NOONE! I NEED AND WANT HELP I FEEL I AM SINKING AND WILL NEVER GET BACK UP! I AM TIRED OF CRYONG ANF FEELING AND LOOKING LIKE THIS!
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I am so glad that you have found EmpowHER...we are here to listen, be a shoulder to cry on, and help you find resources and information.
I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. As if it's not bad enough to have a physical condition like PCOS, you are suffering emotionally and mentally as well.
I understand you do not have health insurance from your husband's employer, but do they offer COBRA? Are you and your husband able to sit down and figure out HOW you can get individual health insurance, or pay out-of-pocket for a Psychologist? Many Psychologists have self-pay options (about 50% reduced rate), as well as sliding-scale fees and payment options. YOU NEED TO SEEK HELP. You have many signs of depression, and it is of utmost importance for yourself and your family that everyone pull their resources together to get you the help you need. PCOS absolutely is a difficult disease, as well as insulin resistance...how are these being treated (or, did you stop all treatments?). Please call your doctor for a referral to a mental health professional who specializes in chronic illness, and make an appointment with that person (you may need to talk with a few before you find the right "fit"...this is expected and normal, but you may be lucky to find the right person first!). Ask your husband to drive you to the appointment, or take you out for lunch afterwards to talk. Please do this for yourself, and ask your husband to help you become the wife, mother and wonderful women you are meant to be.
Lastly, many Psychologists' first office visit is free, and you can ask about what type of payment is expected for the first visit, or if you can have a one-time meeting that is free or a nominal amount (I'm thinking $20) to get you in the door, and see if this person is a right fit for you.
Please let us know how you are doing after you make the call, and we can help you through the rest of the steps!October 30, 2011 - 7:34pm
Alison, thank you for the support, my husband tries but is lost as to what to do and how to handle this. I am currently trying several things to get not just a psychologist but also a doctor for the rest as well and no i am on nothing at all for my insulin resistance anymore it has been almost 3 and half years now since i had any kind of treatment or meds. believe me i definatley know that i am in a severe depression! i just can't function anymore, i prefer to sleep. I am hopeing that one or more of the agencies i have found and contacted will be able to help. I want my life back! As for any support from anyone else I have none my mother thinks i am over reacting, she says it is no big deal, that i need to just lose weight and "deal with it". I cant make her understand or see what is happening to me both physically and mentally not to mention how my over all health has deteriated. I hope to be able to get help soon!!!! I feel my family and since os self depend on it. Again THANK YOU! Stacy.November 1, 2011 - 5:26pm