I tend to share everything in my life on this sight and I am looking for advise.
Love can certainly be a wonderful thing as well as pretty trivial at times. Your life changes in so many ways over the years and than something comes in and changes your thoughts and your future.
I spent eight years with a man, a wonderful man, who made some bad choices in life which caused the worst heartache and grief in my young life. As a strong woman, I stood up and learned to understand that the things that happened were not my fault. I took time to heal from the loss of love and also learned how to be happy with myself, alone. I can say that I feel comfortable in my own skin and know what I want out of life now.
Due to circumstance, this gentleman walks back into my life...he is beautiful, affectionate, interesting and foremost the wonderful man that I remembered before his bad choices. It has been a year since our breakup and my feelings are untouchable. My emotions are running wild, I haven't cried this much in years....it's because I still love him. Why is it so hard to say? People say it all the time and don't mean it but I have the hardest time saying what I really feel, so I am telling you. I love him. I never stopped.
He has changed now. He is back being the person I fell in love with and he just looks so good and healthy. Here is the catch...he has a girlfriend that he really cares about......I am heartbroken. I am here to tell you that I am selfish. I am an Aries and I am the most selfish person. When I want something, I want it. I don't care about who gets hurt in the middle. I feel horrible about this feeling. I feel like I deserve the good man that I knew back.
With this in mind, I need to learn how to stop this selfishness. It is not fair to any person involved. Do I fight for my man? Do I walk away? Do I wish him best of luck and bow out gracefully? I have to admit, it hurts so bad.
Can someone please just open my eyes. Give me advise that doesn't hurt anyone involved. If I have to take another heartbreak, then thats what I have to do. I just don't want to be selfish anymore.
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