Another day begins with a walk to the closet to choose something to wear. My hot coffee steams in the mug that I am carrying. I stand inside the closet staring at my clothes as if I believe the choices may have changed since yesterday.
I have two sections, maternity clothes and my pre-pregnancy attire that I am convinced that I will fit back in someday. But today, neither are options that will fit. I close my eyes and take a sip of wonderful coffee and sign even louder than yesterday.
We carry stretch marks, additional weight and a little extra cushion around our waist (which I refer to as the “Mommy Middle.”) After all that our bodies have been through, how could we not have these things to remind us? But in the back of our minds, we still long to slid back into those favorite jeans and finally come face to face with our bikinis.
I am exaggerating a little with the clothes situation. I do have some things that fit my body “as is” but I could be a good episode of “What Not To Wear.” As we all know, it is much more fun to shop when your clothes are too big than too small.
The shopping experience starts out well enough. I sing in the car the entire way to the mall. I nearly skip through the spacious hallways because A) I am shopping without kids and B) I anticipate all the great finds that are waiting for me.