I am going through the very same thing all of these spouse caregivers are going through. I myself am a spouse caregiver to my girlfriend / partner of 10 years. She's always been a little sickly but 5 years into the relationship she contracted the swine flu and was hospitalized for 2 weeks and had to rehabilitate her motor skills and retrain her breathing from the intubation and sever pneumonia. Since then i thought for sure our lives would go back to normal, but the drugs that they administered to save her life only made the side effects long life lasting. Now she is living with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, sever back pain, and a various amounts of severe illness that are too long of a list to take up this box. As her health has progressively gotten worse i only find myself being more of a shell of her partner and not the loving gf i once was to her. Now i feel more like a nurse than a spouse. I find it hard not to think about leaving, but how can leave her knowing she doesn't earn any money, we're living out of her parent's house cause i can't afford to carry the both of us. I love her so much but am so conflicted with the thought of even leaving her. How do i deal with being a loyal spouse and having my guilt over take me? I feel so horrible even complaining about this cause i know she would stay and take care of me till the bitter end, if she needed to. I just can't hang in there anymore, i'm dying inside emotionally and physically and psychologically.
I would like to know if there are any support groups in the los angeles area. I need to see more of you guys but in the flesh. Thanks for all the comments, they've helped me a lot.
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I am going through the very same thing all of these spouse caregivers are going through. I myself am a spouse caregiver to my girlfriend / partner of 10 years. She's always been a little sickly but 5 years into the relationship she contracted the swine flu and was hospitalized for 2 weeks and had to rehabilitate her motor skills and retrain her breathing from the intubation and sever pneumonia. Since then i thought for sure our lives would go back to normal, but the drugs that they administered to save her life only made the side effects long life lasting. Now she is living with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, sever back pain, and a various amounts of severe illness that are too long of a list to take up this box. As her health has progressively gotten worse i only find myself being more of a shell of her partner and not the loving gf i once was to her. Now i feel more like a nurse than a spouse. I find it hard not to think about leaving, but how can leave her knowing she doesn't earn any money, we're living out of her parent's house cause i can't afford to carry the both of us. I love her so much but am so conflicted with the thought of even leaving her. How do i deal with being a loyal spouse and having my guilt over take me? I feel so horrible even complaining about this cause i know she would stay and take care of me till the bitter end, if she needed to. I just can't hang in there anymore, i'm dying inside emotionally and physically and psychologically.
I would like to know if there are any support groups in the los angeles area. I need to see more of you guys but in the flesh. Thanks for all the comments, they've helped me a lot.
October 5, 2014 - 10:06pmThis Comment
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