Im with a man who is my hubby, that has never treated me properly, never wanted to spend time with me unless it suits him, I had to fit into his life, he never wanted to be apart of my life. He is full blown narcissistic. Now he is sick stage 4 colorectal cancer, doing it all naturally, no chemo, no radiation, no pain meds, no surgery. 2 1/2 yrs diagnose.
It just doesn't feel worth it anymore staying, he's so selfish, it's like I can leave the house for errands but god forbid I go out with friends, forget about a vacation, which is what the boys and I need desperately.
I told him once that "yes, you have the illness but your not the only one going through this", his comment was, "yah sure okay, you take these pills, you be in the bathroom constantly". I'm so worried about the boys, ages 18 & 12, and how this will affect them in the long run.
The nurses that come to the house know the situation with him, and know that I'm tired and done with him.
I know this makes me out to be selfish, but he wouldn't even do a quarter of what I do for him, in being a caregiver. He has shown me in the past that I'm not important enough to him. I was so sick years ago, couldn't get out of bed, fevering, had a super badass cold, but he still wen away for the weekend. Didn't bother to see if we needed groceries or anything. I had to get my elderly parents to come to my town to pick up my debit card anf go grocery shopping for the boys and I.
Another time was when I fainted with my friends, they called him left him msgs and nothing, when I finally got home, he wasn't there, hours later he shows up, as if nothing was happened, came back home to get his workout clothes and then left again.
I'm cleaning up after him, when he shits himself, or has explosive poops in the bathroom, or in the hallway, and all sorts of other stuff that a caregiver does.
I just want to come out this okay, and still have have my sanity. I truly don't know how long I can keep doing this for him, he is so snarky and arguementive.
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Im with a man who is my hubby, that has never treated me properly, never wanted to spend time with me unless it suits him, I had to fit into his life, he never wanted to be apart of my life. He is full blown narcissistic. Now he is sick stage 4 colorectal cancer, doing it all naturally, no chemo, no radiation, no pain meds, no surgery. 2 1/2 yrs diagnose.
April 30, 2017 - 6:02amIt just doesn't feel worth it anymore staying, he's so selfish, it's like I can leave the house for errands but god forbid I go out with friends, forget about a vacation, which is what the boys and I need desperately.
I told him once that "yes, you have the illness but your not the only one going through this", his comment was, "yah sure okay, you take these pills, you be in the bathroom constantly". I'm so worried about the boys, ages 18 & 12, and how this will affect them in the long run.
The nurses that come to the house know the situation with him, and know that I'm tired and done with him.
I know this makes me out to be selfish, but he wouldn't even do a quarter of what I do for him, in being a caregiver. He has shown me in the past that I'm not important enough to him. I was so sick years ago, couldn't get out of bed, fevering, had a super badass cold, but he still wen away for the weekend. Didn't bother to see if we needed groceries or anything. I had to get my elderly parents to come to my town to pick up my debit card anf go grocery shopping for the boys and I.
Another time was when I fainted with my friends, they called him left him msgs and nothing, when I finally got home, he wasn't there, hours later he shows up, as if nothing was happened, came back home to get his workout clothes and then left again.
I'm cleaning up after him, when he shits himself, or has explosive poops in the bathroom, or in the hallway, and all sorts of other stuff that a caregiver does.
I just want to come out this okay, and still have have my sanity. I truly don't know how long I can keep doing this for him, he is so snarky and arguementive.
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