Thank you so much for writing again. It's heartening to see you are doing so much better after all the pain. I don't want to hurt him--and his unexpected reaction to my leaving has made it even harder for me. At first he was angry and mean--and it is EASY to leave that. Now he is remorseful and begs me to come back---and he is really making an effort to do better and stay off the drugs....I REALLY didn't think he would ever do that--he has been refusing for so long. This doesn't change the fact that I am just "numb" and feel NO desire to be with him ever again. It does make me feel sorry for him--and guilty. Some days I come to the conclusion that people ARE going to get hurt--and I am going to have to accept that. There has been plenty of pain spread around over many years--I guess it's impossible for me to escape it without causing some more....
thank you for sharing your experience with us.
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Thank you so much for writing again. It's heartening to see you are doing so much better after all the pain. I don't want to hurt him--and his unexpected reaction to my leaving has made it even harder for me. At first he was angry and mean--and it is EASY to leave that. Now he is remorseful and begs me to come back---and he is really making an effort to do better and stay off the drugs....I REALLY didn't think he would ever do that--he has been refusing for so long. This doesn't change the fact that I am just "numb" and feel NO desire to be with him ever again. It does make me feel sorry for him--and guilty. Some days I come to the conclusion that people ARE going to get hurt--and I am going to have to accept that. There has been plenty of pain spread around over many years--I guess it's impossible for me to escape it without causing some more....
March 9, 2011 - 12:17pmthank you for sharing your experience with us.
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