Thank you for all your support, and for all the links. It never occurred to me to mention my age, I'll be 52 in August. It seems unfair that I get a diagnosis one week and news that I should have a bi-lat mas. the next. But given the markers-I started my 1st period just before I turned 12, I've had precancerous breast disease since 2000, very dense, w/several cysts, it's sort of making sense...sort of.
I know I write like I'm doing great, but that's my game-face. I'm a great pretender to the world when I can get away with it. This is my biggest challenge and it has zapped me of my energy. I spent all day in bed on Saturday hiding from the world and all those who tried to contact me. I couldn't eat for two days, I forced myself to get a little down twice during that period, and tried to drink water when I could. I'm only communicating via email at this point because that's all I have the courage for right now. It hurts to hear the pain in their voices. When I get a little stronger I'll be able to face them again.
I have ordered the Breast Reconstruction Guidebook, but it won't get her till after my 1st appointment with the Plastic Surgeon. That appointment will be this coming Wednesday, then I meet again with my general surgeon on Tuesday morning to get more details and perhaps a To-Do List if I'm lucky. I do like my surgeon, he has handled a previous breast surgery and my needle biopsies, and has a good bed-side manner, but as another valuable contact who is much further along in her breast cancer journey put it, "You're in the 'big-time' now and you need to consider a specialist." It's all happening so fast I'm not sure I have time to seek out a second opinion at this point but I will try.
Thank you again, for everything.
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Thank you for all your support, and for all the links. It never occurred to me to mention my age, I'll be 52 in August. It seems unfair that I get a diagnosis one week and news that I should have a bi-lat mas. the next. But given the markers-I started my 1st period just before I turned 12, I've had precancerous breast disease since 2000, very dense, w/several cysts, it's sort of making sense...sort of.
I know I write like I'm doing great, but that's my game-face. I'm a great pretender to the world when I can get away with it. This is my biggest challenge and it has zapped me of my energy. I spent all day in bed on Saturday hiding from the world and all those who tried to contact me. I couldn't eat for two days, I forced myself to get a little down twice during that period, and tried to drink water when I could. I'm only communicating via email at this point because that's all I have the courage for right now. It hurts to hear the pain in their voices. When I get a little stronger I'll be able to face them again.
I have ordered the Breast Reconstruction Guidebook, but it won't get her till after my 1st appointment with the Plastic Surgeon. That appointment will be this coming Wednesday, then I meet again with my general surgeon on Tuesday morning to get more details and perhaps a To-Do List if I'm lucky. I do like my surgeon, he has handled a previous breast surgery and my needle biopsies, and has a good bed-side manner, but as another valuable contact who is much further along in her breast cancer journey put it, "You're in the 'big-time' now and you need to consider a specialist." It's all happening so fast I'm not sure I have time to seek out a second opinion at this point but I will try.
May 18, 2009 - 6:59pmThank you again, for everything.
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