Hello Joanna,
Reading your article has made me understand Bulimia a lot more. I am 23 years old and have been bulimic for the past 4 years. You mentioned that when bulimic women take yoga classes they often cry and dont know why. Reading that almost made me cry because that happens to me every time I take a yoga class. Why does that happen? I always feel pain and sadness by the end of a yoga class when the lights are out and you shut your eyes. Its always such a strange experience.
I relate to everything you have said in your article. From binging on men, shopping, alcohol and people. My anxiety and depression paralyzes me and I feel so alone. I have always been a perfectionist and high achiever receiving straight A's and scholarships in high-school. But now I'm failing all my university classes, never go to class (social anxiety) and procrastinate homework (feeling "paralyzed") or just don't do it. I think I am hitting my rock bottom because I feel like my life is going now where and the past 4 years have been a complete waste of my life. All my friends are finishing University while I am 2 1/2 years behind. I'm so tired of being afraid of life and living in my "safe" bulimic world while ruining friendships and pushing my family away with anger and hostility.It's like everyday is living in a haunted house in a sense. I also have not had a relationship in 3 years while "serial" dating always ending with me pushing men away because I have a belief I am not worthy enough of love/ im a horrible person. I feel like such a freak and all my family and friends always ask why I dont have a boyfriend. Will I ever recover from this awful disorder? I am so sorry for venting on here but I feel I have no one to talk to and I have never opened up to anyone before about this. Do you think I may have borderline disorder or something else wrong with me?
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Hello Joanna,
February 15, 2011 - 10:50pmReading your article has made me understand Bulimia a lot more. I am 23 years old and have been bulimic for the past 4 years. You mentioned that when bulimic women take yoga classes they often cry and dont know why. Reading that almost made me cry because that happens to me every time I take a yoga class. Why does that happen? I always feel pain and sadness by the end of a yoga class when the lights are out and you shut your eyes. Its always such a strange experience.
I relate to everything you have said in your article. From binging on men, shopping, alcohol and people. My anxiety and depression paralyzes me and I feel so alone. I have always been a perfectionist and high achiever receiving straight A's and scholarships in high-school. But now I'm failing all my university classes, never go to class (social anxiety) and procrastinate homework (feeling "paralyzed") or just don't do it. I think I am hitting my rock bottom because I feel like my life is going now where and the past 4 years have been a complete waste of my life. All my friends are finishing University while I am 2 1/2 years behind. I'm so tired of being afraid of life and living in my "safe" bulimic world while ruining friendships and pushing my family away with anger and hostility.It's like everyday is living in a haunted house in a sense. I also have not had a relationship in 3 years while "serial" dating always ending with me pushing men away because I have a belief I am not worthy enough of love/ im a horrible person. I feel like such a freak and all my family and friends always ask why I dont have a boyfriend. Will I ever recover from this awful disorder? I am so sorry for venting on here but I feel I have no one to talk to and I have never opened up to anyone before about this. Do you think I may have borderline disorder or something else wrong with me?
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