I was 31 wks pregnant when I went into labor at home at 2 in the morning on my bathroom floor on March 31st 2014. My husband helped me deliver our beautiful baby boy Abram. He died in my arms shortly after. When i finally got to the hospital i was hemmoraging and lost they thought they were going to loose me too. My husband watched as they used a crash cart to bring me back. Since then My husband and I have only been together once since then and im now 2 weeks late. Im not even close to be ok after burying my son. We have 4 boys 15; 13,9,5 1 daughter 8. It was traumatic fir them to have to hold him and say goodbye too. I dont want to get their hopes up too. My periods were normal after I gave birth. Why would I not start now. Im terrified I can't ever go through this again. 10 days after my son died my father passed away and last month my brother was found murdered stabbed to death. So my children have had to go to 3 funerals and loose very close family members in such a short time. Could the stress just now be effecting me? If it wasn't for my husband and kids I would forget my religion and do something selfish. I couldn't do that to them. Can you think of any other reason then being pregnant? Im mentally not ready ever to go through that again. Thank you.
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I was 31 wks pregnant when I went into labor at home at 2 in the morning on my bathroom floor on March 31st 2014. My husband helped me deliver our beautiful baby boy Abram. He died in my arms shortly after. When i finally got to the hospital i was hemmoraging and lost they thought they were going to loose me too. My husband watched as they used a crash cart to bring me back. Since then My husband and I have only been together once since then and im now 2 weeks late. Im not even close to be ok after burying my son. We have 4 boys 15; 13,9,5 1 daughter 8. It was traumatic fir them to have to hold him and say goodbye too. I dont want to get their hopes up too. My periods were normal after I gave birth. Why would I not start now. Im terrified I can't ever go through this again. 10 days after my son died my father passed away and last month my brother was found murdered stabbed to death. So my children have had to go to 3 funerals and loose very close family members in such a short time. Could the stress just now be effecting me? If it wasn't for my husband and kids I would forget my religion and do something selfish. I couldn't do that to them. Can you think of any other reason then being pregnant? Im mentally not ready ever to go through that again. Thank you.
November 12, 2014 - 6:49amThis Comment
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