I am so, so sorry that you lost your beloved friend, husband, your son's father. I know the loss is so huge.
When I was 26 and my siblings were 16 and 17, my dad died of cancer. It changed everything in our world, as I know it has changed everything in yours. You go on sometimes just because your heart keeps beating and your lungs keep breathing. You take baby steps when you can't take full steps. You do it a day at a time, and when you can't do it a day at a time, you deal with an hour at a time.
Please don't kick yourself for anything about his death -- of course he knew how important he was to you. Absolutely. And he knew it would be a struggle now. But I am suspecting he also knew that someway, you would be OK. And I know he felt better about leaving since he knew his son had you to help him through it.
Crying is important. Don't worry that you cry when you're alone. It may go on like that for quite some time. Grieving is personal, and we all do it differently and for different periods of time.
Have you considered finding a therapist or a grief counselor? It may help you to have someone to talk to, now and in the future. Everything changes when a loved one dies, and we experience every emotion along the way. I am sure your son is doing the same.
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Ellens320,
I am so, so sorry that you lost your beloved friend, husband, your son's father. I know the loss is so huge.
When I was 26 and my siblings were 16 and 17, my dad died of cancer. It changed everything in our world, as I know it has changed everything in yours. You go on sometimes just because your heart keeps beating and your lungs keep breathing. You take baby steps when you can't take full steps. You do it a day at a time, and when you can't do it a day at a time, you deal with an hour at a time.
Please don't kick yourself for anything about his death -- of course he knew how important he was to you. Absolutely. And he knew it would be a struggle now. But I am suspecting he also knew that someway, you would be OK. And I know he felt better about leaving since he knew his son had you to help him through it.
Crying is important. Don't worry that you cry when you're alone. It may go on like that for quite some time. Grieving is personal, and we all do it differently and for different periods of time.
Have you considered finding a therapist or a grief counselor? It may help you to have someone to talk to, now and in the future. Everything changes when a loved one dies, and we experience every emotion along the way. I am sure your son is doing the same.
How old is he? In your opinion, how is he doing?
May 4, 2010 - 9:11amThis Comment
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