My partner hung himself a few weeks ago. I do not agree with your comment that the person who commits suicide are uncomfortable the impact of those left behind. He was well aware, his brother also hung himself a few years ago. I'm left with intense emotional feelings, I wake up thinking about him, going over conversations we had, I go to bed doing exactly the same. I'm a psychiatric nurse so will be looked on as questioned as too why I didn't see it coming. Since it has happened I have found out he wasn't the person he made out he was. I have also started to realise what he did to me was emotional abuse. Our relationship was very up and down, we did so many good things together and he was very good with my daughter. I loved the him but also hated what he was putting me through. He was intimidating at times, threatening and this lead to me repeatedly telling him he was not the right person for me and my daughter. He would make me feel like he was going to either hurt me, himself or trash my home. This went on for 2 years, he would excuse his behaviour and project on me blaming me for his moods and the nasty things he would say. He was extremely controlling, and would accuse me of going off with other men. I have now found out that it was him having the affair, I have also found out he was in debt and was owing money for drugs. Despite all this I'm hurting so much, the day he hung himself he was telling me how much he loved me and how we could work on helping each other trust each other. He was also due to start a new job and was very happy and excited about this. I knew he had some debt, but knew nothing about poly drug use. What is even worse I found out he has got a woman pregnant, he had always said he wanted to have a family and would love the chance to be a father like. Why I keep asking, I gave him every opportunity to leave me alone and walk away. He could of had what he always said he wanted.
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My partner hung himself a few weeks ago. I do not agree with your comment that the person who commits suicide are uncomfortable the impact of those left behind. He was well aware, his brother also hung himself a few years ago. I'm left with intense emotional feelings, I wake up thinking about him, going over conversations we had, I go to bed doing exactly the same. I'm a psychiatric nurse so will be looked on as questioned as too why I didn't see it coming. Since it has happened I have found out he wasn't the person he made out he was. I have also started to realise what he did to me was emotional abuse. Our relationship was very up and down, we did so many good things together and he was very good with my daughter. I loved the him but also hated what he was putting me through. He was intimidating at times, threatening and this lead to me repeatedly telling him he was not the right person for me and my daughter. He would make me feel like he was going to either hurt me, himself or trash my home. This went on for 2 years, he would excuse his behaviour and project on me blaming me for his moods and the nasty things he would say. He was extremely controlling, and would accuse me of going off with other men. I have now found out that it was him having the affair, I have also found out he was in debt and was owing money for drugs. Despite all this I'm hurting so much, the day he hung himself he was telling me how much he loved me and how we could work on helping each other trust each other. He was also due to start a new job and was very happy and excited about this. I knew he had some debt, but knew nothing about poly drug use. What is even worse I found out he has got a woman pregnant, he had always said he wanted to have a family and would love the chance to be a father like. Why I keep asking, I gave him every opportunity to leave me alone and walk away. He could of had what he always said he wanted.
August 25, 2014 - 1:23amThis Comment
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