Hi Diane,
Thank you for your reply.Well,maybe you'll be surprised about my age.I'm 44 years old,although I'm a very young person,not only in the appearance but also in my personality.I had a daughter when I was 21 years old,I haven't enjoyed life very much in the sense of going out,having fun,etc...That's why maybe I have trasmitted you a younger age.
Answering to your other questions...OK...the situations that bother me the most are varied...Maybe when I'm in a group of people,and attention is drawn on me,or I'm asked a question...Maybe with a close friend ,I suddenly feel embarrased,self-conscious for no reason at all,I try to react but sometimes it is impossible.
That's why I talked to you about brain chemistry,because I'm a strong person,very determined and I have faith in myself,and sometimes I absolutely cant control feeling like that.But the curious thing about me,is that the same situation can bother me a lot,or not at all,depending on how I feel that day,or that particular moment.
About the symptoms...Well,the worst thing is blushing,is something that I fear a lot,because I feel ridiculous before the others and before myself,as I know is something very stupid and has no sense...but I cant help it anyway.I don't have other symptoms,apart from racing thoughts,I feel like running away,escaping from the situation as fast as possible and feel relaxed.
Past experiences? Well,I said that just because I read about it sometime ago,and because it seems an automatic reaction,so quick that I cant possibly think what thoughts I have before feeling embarrased or self-conscious...So I've thought it can be something connected to something in my past,that makes me act automatically withouth thinking..The only thing I remember is that I started feeling like this aproximately when I moved house when I was 11 years old,and changed town,life,friends...Maybe that triggered in a way all this behaviour,but I don't know...
How long does it take to go awa? Well,it depends,sometimes I blush and in some seconds is past and I behave properly and feel more or less ok...In the last years I dont thing over and over it as I used to do when I was younger(I was obsessed).
Thank you very much...Sorry for my long mail.
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Hi Diane,
May 12, 2010 - 1:32amThank you for your reply.Well,maybe you'll be surprised about my age.I'm 44 years old,although I'm a very young person,not only in the appearance but also in my personality.I had a daughter when I was 21 years old,I haven't enjoyed life very much in the sense of going out,having fun,etc...That's why maybe I have trasmitted you a younger age.
Answering to your other questions...OK...the situations that bother me the most are varied...Maybe when I'm in a group of people,and attention is drawn on me,or I'm asked a question...Maybe with a close friend ,I suddenly feel embarrased,self-conscious for no reason at all,I try to react but sometimes it is impossible.
That's why I talked to you about brain chemistry,because I'm a strong person,very determined and I have faith in myself,and sometimes I absolutely cant control feeling like that.But the curious thing about me,is that the same situation can bother me a lot,or not at all,depending on how I feel that day,or that particular moment.
About the symptoms...Well,the worst thing is blushing,is something that I fear a lot,because I feel ridiculous before the others and before myself,as I know is something very stupid and has no sense...but I cant help it anyway.I don't have other symptoms,apart from racing thoughts,I feel like running away,escaping from the situation as fast as possible and feel relaxed.
Past experiences? Well,I said that just because I read about it sometime ago,and because it seems an automatic reaction,so quick that I cant possibly think what thoughts I have before feeling embarrased or self-conscious...So I've thought it can be something connected to something in my past,that makes me act automatically withouth thinking..The only thing I remember is that I started feeling like this aproximately when I moved house when I was 11 years old,and changed town,life,friends...Maybe that triggered in a way all this behaviour,but I don't know...
How long does it take to go awa? Well,it depends,sometimes I blush and in some seconds is past and I behave properly and feel more or less ok...In the last years I dont thing over and over it as I used to do when I was younger(I was obsessed).
Thank you very much...Sorry for my long mail.
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