I have been married and remarried with my emotionally abusive husband since 1981. But it wasn't until recently did I realize what was really going on. My husband refuses to give me any affection except in front of the family he's the perfect husband around the adult children For years I thought if I looked better. Cleaned house better cooked better he would treat me better. Now I realize no matter what goes never going to be kind caring or concerned fir my welfare. I've recently have had some serious Heakth issued with my heart. A heart attack 2014 and two weeks ago chest pain that ended up in transfer from one hospital to a larger hospital that ended up in stents. He heft be at the first hospital after 2.5 hours. Then after & hours later I called him to tell him that I was being transferred by ambulance. For serious condition change snd thst the dr said I might have to have an emergency cardiac cath when I get there. So st 12:30pm I called him to tell him He got to the hospital at 2am. And was livid with anger cause the doctor was going to wait till the morning to do the cardiac cath. So here we are st 2 am screaming st each other cause he's so pissed st me. And I'm so angry that in 12 hours he never called to check on his wife to see how she is doing So he leaves me again. Guess home. So I go. Forthe cath that morning with no family. Andof course he never calls any ofthe four adult children thst live in the area. So when I wake up in recovery after having two stents putin my heart he's there. Went home the next day he had 12 people over fir my birthday. But then after everyone goes home I was expected to do all the dishes cook him dinner the next day. And do his laundry. He makes decent money. But only gives me 1565.00 per month fir the household bills. And I'm suppose to buy groceries out of that too. The only way I make ends meet is I have to use all my money from my pension to pay all the bills. Cell phone. Car insurance utilities there's nothing left for me. But yet he has hundreds in his wallet I've tried to discuss these issues with him and he just storms out goes to the bar snd comes home drunk. Sometimes he picks something out of the air to pick a fight so he can leave. He says the most derogatory horrible cut downs. A couselor hold me not to say anything. So last time I hid in the pantry But it's really hard not to try snd defend yourself He use to havemy self esteem in the gutter because I'm ugly I'm fat un attractive that's why my husband won't sleep with me touch me. He quit sleeping with me when I was pregnant with our fourth child 30 years ago. I know I need to see an attorney but I don't think I have it in me to leave my beautiful home and I'm not healthy with my heart at she 65. I'm scared to be alone. I would leave but all the bills except one are all in my name. Even the mortgage. If I leave I don't have the money to pay two households yesterday carting in a heavy box he hit me in the back of my leg. I said ouch of course he would never say I'm sorry. So today being on blood thinners ihave a huge bruise and lump on the back of my leg. I think when you take the time to write everything down it makes you realize how bad things are. Abd you think how can I live like this especially when you know these are very precious years that you are giving him snd after all the years of catering to hisevery whim. He's still gonna walk all over you like an old rug soon to be tossed away like a piece of garbage
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I have been married and remarried with my emotionally abusive husband since 1981. But it wasn't until recently did I realize what was really going on. My husband refuses to give me any affection except in front of the family he's the perfect husband around the adult children For years I thought if I looked better. Cleaned house better cooked better he would treat me better. Now I realize no matter what goes never going to be kind caring or concerned fir my welfare. I've recently have had some serious Heakth issued with my heart. A heart attack 2014 and two weeks ago chest pain that ended up in transfer from one hospital to a larger hospital that ended up in stents. He heft be at the first hospital after 2.5 hours. Then after & hours later I called him to tell him that I was being transferred by ambulance. For serious condition change snd thst the dr said I might have to have an emergency cardiac cath when I get there. So st 12:30pm I called him to tell him He got to the hospital at 2am. And was livid with anger cause the doctor was going to wait till the morning to do the cardiac cath. So here we are st 2 am screaming st each other cause he's so pissed st me. And I'm so angry that in 12 hours he never called to check on his wife to see how she is doing So he leaves me again. Guess home. So I go. Forthe cath that morning with no family. Andof course he never calls any ofthe four adult children thst live in the area. So when I wake up in recovery after having two stents putin my heart he's there. Went home the next day he had 12 people over fir my birthday. But then after everyone goes home I was expected to do all the dishes cook him dinner the next day. And do his laundry. He makes decent money. But only gives me 1565.00 per month fir the household bills. And I'm suppose to buy groceries out of that too. The only way I make ends meet is I have to use all my money from my pension to pay all the bills. Cell phone. Car insurance utilities there's nothing left for me. But yet he has hundreds in his wallet I've tried to discuss these issues with him and he just storms out goes to the bar snd comes home drunk. Sometimes he picks something out of the air to pick a fight so he can leave. He says the most derogatory horrible cut downs. A couselor hold me not to say anything. So last time I hid in the pantry But it's really hard not to try snd defend yourself He use to havemy self esteem in the gutter because I'm ugly I'm fat un attractive that's why my husband won't sleep with me touch me. He quit sleeping with me when I was pregnant with our fourth child 30 years ago. I know I need to see an attorney but I don't think I have it in me to leave my beautiful home and I'm not healthy with my heart at she 65. I'm scared to be alone. I would leave but all the bills except one are all in my name. Even the mortgage. If I leave I don't have the money to pay two households yesterday carting in a heavy box he hit me in the back of my leg. I said ouch of course he would never say I'm sorry. So today being on blood thinners ihave a huge bruise and lump on the back of my leg. I think when you take the time to write everything down it makes you realize how bad things are. Abd you think how can I live like this especially when you know these are very precious years that you are giving him snd after all the years of catering to hisevery whim. He's still gonna walk all over you like an old rug soon to be tossed away like a piece of garbage
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