I am seventeen and a couple of months ago my mum told me I had autism. Since this we haven't ever spoken about it and its made me think she made it up. However, now when looking up on-line for symptoms I have many of them. I also have a friend who is "severely autistic." Everyone treats her completely different to "normal people" but I don't see how she is that different. I would talk to somebody about it but I don't want people to treat me in the same way and I think a doctor would just laugh at me if I asked. This is a serious question because I never understand why people don't understand the point I am trying to put across but then again I don't always understand why what I am saying offends them. I often get totally involved in one thing that I don't see the reality surrounding it. For example I am heavily involved in music. This means that I want to do nothing but music all day and everyday. If anyone tries to stop me I lash out and start to have panic attacks. To me at that moment I feel like I want to kill myself and run away from everything: I seriously cannot deal with it, When I was younger it was fine with it all my friends acted the same but now I'm seventeen I can see in hindsight that all of my reactions are irrational but yet I cannot control them. The other day I ran away from my house because my mum said I couldn't go to one event so I just left. I act like a child so I just left and didn't think of the consequences. Now looking back I can see that it wasn't even that bad. Please answer because its driving me crazy.