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Losing at depression

By Anonymous May 14, 2013 - 8:15pm
 
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I was diagnosed with severe depression about a year and a half ago. I am in therapy and currently on medication. I have in the past cut myself, it has been around a month since I cut last, and that was a sever lapse...I hadn't cut for several months before that.

Lately, things have been pretty rough. I just finished my junior year of college, and things were really stressful before that. Things should have calmed down some, but I'm having a really really hard time being home and it has resulted in me being angry.

I just don't know to convey to my parents and brothers that I need a little bit more help. I know I am so close to beating this but I am just having issues right now, very emotional and I am trying to hide it because I know it stresses them more. My parents are supposed to meet with my therapist, but they haven't called her yet. I don't know how they are supposed to help, but I need more than what I can do. I have been resisting hurting myself. I hate my scars as it is, but I am just so tempted to drive something through my arm. I know cutting myself isn't the answer and that just makes me angrier later because I know it's wrong.

I don't even know what I'm asking right now

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Hello Anonymous,

Please do not hurt yourself. Trust me--you will beat this. I know what you are asking right now--you are asking for and reaching out for help. You need the love, support and understanding of your parents and brothers.

I have personal experience with depression, both myself and someone whom I love dearly. Depression never really goes away. There are good days and then something triggers those bad feelings and the depression returns.

The key is to find healthy ways of coping with the triggers. It takes time. It takes learning or re-learning positive coping mechanisms. Medication can help. Therapy can help with learning those positive ways to cope.

I hope your parents meet with your therapist as soon as possible. Let them read my response, if you think that may help. I am also a mother and I have been there. Mental health issues, like depression, are not taboo, not something to be ashamed of and try to ignore. Mental illness is just that an illness, just like heart disease.

Please communicate with us if you feel you need to talk. You should not face this alone. I care:)

Maryann

May 15, 2013 - 5:46am
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